I haven't been blogging. It's not that I haven't wanted to, its that ... my life has become so complicated, I'm afraid if I have to write it down I'll focus on it and I won't like what I see. No, in fact, I know I won't like what I see. But that's okay, because God can see. He knows all about my life, he knows where I am going, and he knows where I've been. He even knows what has gotten me to this point. I know that I've got to start writing all that has happened, if nothing else but to be able to reflect on it, and meditate on it, as I pray for God's guidance. Without him, I would not have been able to handle the past few months, or the past few years. I guess this blogpost will best be named hope. Hope that what is now, will not be. Hope that nothing is going to happen today that together God and I can't handle. That's 99% God and 1% me on the handling part. Some days I just think I'll fall apart, but somehow he gives me the strength to go on. Hope. Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope implies a certain amount of perserverance — i.e., believing that a positive outcome is possible even when there is some evidence to the contrary. Wikipedia says it better than I. To me Hope is represented by light. Reminding me that my purpose is to show God's light to others. God carries me, and hope sustains me today.